Remind Yourself That It's Ok Not To Be Perfect
Well I haven’t been online in a while, I have been writing though yet I haven’t wanted to share. Now I feel slightly more ready to share again. So much has happened since I wrote last, from my graduation to getting a new job and of course my sister getting married!
A lot of positive moments have happened, a lot of doors closed with so many new ones opening. I spoke before about mixed feelings traveling back to America for the graduation, well things were all over the place honestly. Yet now I am growing stronger and have something that keeps me living more each day.
This has taken me longer then I had wanted, first I would like to say thank you to everyone who read my first post and all the messages. I honestly have had such amazing support and kind words from everyone. Knowing that I can help others through my own experiences means the world to me.
Since my last post a lot has happened, a lot of people have opened up to me about their suffering and thanked me for speaking out also asking for advice on what to do. With this it has honestly made my mentality change and has honestly kept me here today. It hasn’t been easy and I defiantly haven’t helped myself, certain people I forced out of my life that I didn’t want too but they never wanted to fight to stay in the reality of that hurts. My actions haven’t always been good; I’m defiantly no saint.
Recently I have received many messages from people I haven’t spoken with in over 5 years and others that have never even spoke to me. Why? Well some people think it’s ok to discuss my health and life situations with others without even considering what that may do. I am no angry, I am rather thankful as it is helping me not to hide anymore and share what is going on in my life. I have decided speak out about this to try and help people understand a little more or even help someone who feel the same way I do.
In the early hours on March 25th 2017, I attempted to take my own life.